Wednesday, February 20, 2008
I am very angry and sad with my parent. At first they promise me that they will bring me to Taiwan during my brother one week school holiday in March. Now they are telling me that i cannot go to Taiwan in March as my mum need to take exam. Then why they promise me that they will be bringing me to Taiwan in March. Are they treating me as their daughter or a person who can play with her feeling? Why everytime they promise me something, they never keep their promise and keep on breaking my heart. No matter how hard i try to keep my part of the promise i just could not get the promise fulfill. It is alway my parent who wet back on their promise.
Do they just take me for granted or what? Again and again they keep on breaking their promise. No matter how much hardwork i put in, they never get to see the effort i put in. I feel like i have been a fool to keep on believe them again and again and get my heart broken again and again. I keep on telling myself that they will keep on promise but they just keep on proving me wrong. WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG TO DESERVE THIS KIND OF TREATMENT? I feel like they do not treasure me and if they dislike me then why at the first place give birth to me. They think that by giving me money to spent can replace the feeling of home in my heart. I dislike this kind of feeling. Sometime when i am in the bedroom i would think that if i have a choice i would rather not come into this family. But i think back again, i love this family even thought they treat me like this. I can't bear to leave as there are some happy and enjoyable memories in this family. But how come i don't have the feeling of warmth in this family and have the idea of leaving this family for good. I just want them to understand me better and is this to much i asking for? Asking them to keep their part of their promise to me and not keep on going back on their promise. If they don't want to fulfill the promise then don't make promise with me. I know that by going back on their promise they don't have anything to lose but to me a broken promise can mean that the world is going to collapse.
Are all adult keep on going back on their promise they have made with their children???? They keep on telling us to keep our promise but what about them. Have they ever keep their part of the promise or they take it as a joke or a laughing sock? Why can't they fulfill their promise? If they made a promise, they should fulfill it so why are they keep on doing the opposite. Then why at the first place made empty promises with their children and when times come break the children heart. I really give up on my parent already. I wish that i have never come into this family. THIS FAMILY IS JUST TO COLD.
段宇桥|10:17 PM|